Hi tumblrrrrr… Here we go again I have such A BIG tdk nyaman moment (Haha idk what’s in English). A lot unspoken deep pain.
First, MY DREEEAAMMMM!!! O how could I start it. I’m really confused rite now, I want something big, a really massive for a girl like me I bet. But my Father in heaven told me indirectly not to reach it. I am DEVASTATED to know that. The only thing that really matter, the one that always keep me up when I’m feeling down, my imagination in the world I wanna be involved with HAD GONE!! I know this is a way to have a bit more faith. I’m studying how to believe in something with a closed-eye. I’m totally blind rite now. I can see nothing. But instead of worrying, I have to be looking up to Jesus and focus on Him only. Tough rite? Your every dream has been taken away and all you have to do is believe something great will happen and had been given to me actually. I mean I’m a teenage how can u take some teenage dreams away? But somehow i surrender. Idk why but I let it all go and starting pray again. Wondering what will I be? What will my future be? But, it’s all about faith. 😢😊
Second, (drum plays please)…………………………….MY SCOREEESSSS hahahahaha it all suck! Anjloookkk brotherrr…
I’m feeling down for it but I don’t show it. Somehow I feel nahhh.. I hate it!!
HAHAHAHA nobody care about me, well actually except dad, mom, bry, k hanki,k riri. That’s all! Everybody is trying to take untung(whatever). Unfair life actually. But that’s life. It is rough, tough, harsh. I’m so tired of all.
How many tears do I have to drop, how big the swallow my eyes turn up, broken, broken, broken. Beaten, beaten, beaten.
This is not a melancholy drama. I just don’t know what to do instead pouring it all in tumblr.